Waking up in a world where you no longer exist

Waking up in a world where you no longer exist.
Waking up in a world where I no longer hear your voice.
Waking up in a world where your love for me no longer exists… or does it?

I no longer expect to see you.
I spend days without thinking about you, but when your image suddenly crosses my mind—
Sometimes it makes me smile,
Other times, the pain is unbearable.

In the days after you passed, I used to see you in my dreams.
You were always silent, alone, calm.
But it’s been a while now since I last saw you in my sleep.
Is it because I’ve stopped praying for you?
Stopped talking to you?
Am I letting life carry me too far away?

Today, I was watching a show,
And in the final scene, a woman lost her child.
I felt her pain.
I cried, thinking of all the parents who endure such an impossible loss.
And suddenly, I remembered you.

The tears rolled down my cheeks.
I remembered your love.
I remembered how you’d call me “my baby” with such devotion.
Only a parent can love like that.
And Dad—
You were such a blessing.

What a beautiful way to begin this life journey:
Having you as a father.
You were my first blessing—
And you will always be
My first blessing.

Salima

Just me thinking out loud over here